Saturday, May 15, 2010

Life is Bittersweet

All good things must come to an end. And all unhealthy obsessions must eventually cease.

That's right. I have nearly finished all five seasons of Supernatural. It is a very bittersweet feeling. I have a few episodes of the latest season waiting to be watched, but soon, I will have to find some other way to devote my time. Once there are no more new episodes to watch, a tiny hole will manifest itself in my heart. A tiny hole that used to be filled with the rugged Dean Winchester, which will have no way of filling itself. Sure, I can certainly rewatch the episodes. And I will. But, it won't be quite the same. 

Good news is . . . as of a few days ago, my fervor for writing has returned. I've sat down and actually written again and it feels really good. My mind is finding it's way back to the story of Caleb and Jaylee. And it is exciting. 

As I got to thinking about the end of Supernatural in my life, the reality of a lot of ends hits me. 

In just two episodes, the epic saga, Lost, will have it's final showdown. Again, this is bittersweet. This season I've just felt like -- okay, get to the end already. Let's see what it is all about. But, once it is over, that's it. Nothing more to reveal, no more questions to create. Just over.

In four weeks, I will be done with Baby for the summer. Again -- extremely bittersweet. I am eager for time at home and in the sun. And I am very excited to work in the preschool. But, I am going to leave and when I come back, Baby might not remember me. Not to mention that she won't be such a little Baby anymore. I love her -- I really do. She is fantastic and such a little person. I will miss rocking her to sleep for naps and singing to her. I will miss letting her crawl all over me and then me attacking her with tickles. She might learn how to walk when I'm gone! She is merely my nanny baby, but I have spent the last seven months of my life caring for her. That is crazy to think about! She has gone from completely immobile with a bobble head to fully transporting herself from room to room. I will miss her.

But with the summer comes some great things!

The new season of So You Think You Can Dance. Time at home. A chance to just really write. For the whole month of August, I will be on break from any sort of job, and I plan to make my job writing. A chance to read. Summer movies. And beyond.

Because with the bittersweet ending of one stage in life, comes the exciting arrival of the next. And life isn't about what you miss from yesterday, it is about what you are discovering today.

1 comment:

  1. thought about you last night for two reasons:

    1. I couldn't sleep.


    2. I was thinking about how nervous I am to drive Lyndi and Lulu all over the city to their various activities this week... and the thought of driving with kids in the backseat always freaks me out.

    those are pretty lame reasons to think about someone, but there you have it.
    hope you have a good day with L today!


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